You are my elder sister, but you just behave like you aren't!
Is a simple phone call that tough to make? Do you have to rely on me all the time?
Seriously, I have a life too!
As much as I am still young, I have school, work and friends on top of our family!
I know you are having a hard time with your own family, and yes you crave attention, but you are being unfair!
I informed you how busy I was, catching up with studies, driving, tests, assignments, work, friends that I would not be able to have time to give a call by the time I get back home.
Then you start bickering that you are busy too! When your weekends are much more relaxing!
All the lame excuses you give just because you do not want to make a phone call for that appointment...
It can be really draining to be your younger sister with that annoying habitual attitude of yours.
i was late.. big time! woke up damn late! went off without eating breakfast so i end up buying sushi from nihwa? (cant rmb the name)... then, went to the gym to meet jada...
it was hard after missing it for 3 wks.. probably will be able to get back on track by next wk...
1500 in school
another day cancelled due to meeting! Its regarding the competition, guess we will be doing in-house now... not that bad i guess... will still look forward to it..
1700 in school library
borrowed 5 books! finally found sidney sheldon again after soo long.. cant wait to get my hands on them!
2000 in Alexandra Hospital
Sis in the hosp.. not gonna be too detailed about it.. just that frustration builds up and im about to vent it out to the next person who tries to talk to me about it again...
2200 online
just learnt a new word..
mas·och·ism(ms-kzm)
n.
1. The deriving of sexual gratification, or the tendency to derive sexual gratification, from being physically or emotionally abused.
2. The deriving of pleasure, or the tendency to derive pleasure, from being humiliated or mistreated, either by another or by oneself.
3. A willingness or tendency to subject oneself to unpleasant or trying experiences.
its been a week in school... its ok i guess... i think the problem lies in me.. though im still bearing the pain of being alone.. and getting use to the fact that im not with 04... its not that i blame 03 for leaving me this way.. its just that it takes time for me to get use to changes...
what made it even more depressing, i have friends who notice my appearance when i bump into them... the most common was "ai.. eu look dead..." or "i miss your cheerful side.." or "eu dun seem like yourself" or "you look tired.. are you ok??" i agree with them.. but i didnt expect all that to be seen... i wonder if that made it the barrier to get close to the 03... cause firstly i do talk to a few.. like morgan, jiaying, zidane, adrena.. but its more like just hi and summarise everything and walk away kinda talk.. argh! im annoyed with myself...
im trying to get use to 03.. i really do.. well, im not trying hard enough i guess.. its hard to not look back to 04 since we have been close since i dun recall when either.. i really miss them.. i treasure every lectures i have with them... i look forward to seeing them when i was given the chances...
there are others who are suffering the same fate as me.. totally different classes and mix with a whole different ppl... but im fortunate cause im sticking with one class.. the only problem is getting along with them.. sigh...
to those friends that was there for me when i feel down.. thank you.. aisyah, shafiqa, YC, yee leng, vilvian, diana, yuqian, yihang, yingqi...
seriously.. i think thinking of you fits me the most in this situation... sigh...
Comparisons are easily done Once you've had a taste of perfection Like an apple hanging from a tree I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed
You said move on, where do I go? I guess second best is all I will know
'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you) Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter Like a hard candy with a surprise center How do I get better once I've had the best? You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test
He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh! (Taste your mouth) He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself
'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you) Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into
You're the best, and yes, I do regret How I could let myself let you go Now, now the lesson's learned I touched it, I was burned Oh, I think you should know!
'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you (Thinking of you, thinking of you) Thinking of you, what you would do If you were the one who was spending the night (Spending the night, spending the night) Oh, I wish that I was looking into your, your eyes Looking into your eyes, looking into your eyes
Oh, won't you walk through? And bust in the door and take me away? Oh, no more mistakes 'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay, stay
You will never be happy, if you continue to search for what happiness consists of; You will never live, if you are looking for the meaning of life. -ALBERT CAMUS-
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♥TWENTY♥ 26 JANUARY 1991 QPS*HSS*TP*SIM-UOL
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