Is it that I had BLEACHED the world??
Or is it tat the world had BLEACHED mine??

Incidents in LIFE hav slashed by too fast and too deep. i can't even tell when it's start and here it end. Oni when time passes by...may be~~
seconds by seconds, mintues by mintues, hours by hours, days by days or may be, may be forever...for some one to notice the SCARS.

But no one knows how long ago, how painful or how much sweats and tears are formed... ... Neither will they understand. Although they always try to~.....
May be they don't get the part that SCARS are not suppose to disappear. It will always be ther..oni being forgotten at times...

But again its a good reminder for us...a unique SYMBOL..
the SYMBOL of ones' BLOOD, SWEAT and TEARS.....

at least for now...i know very well..Mars is still in B/W...black and white... ...

('口' !!) Sometimes,being useless is better than feeling hopeless. Simply worthless~
haha...im simply all three...ther's no reason to disagree...i can't find any... ...

copyrighted by ♥♥♥ DORIS mama ♥♥♥

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16:10
SARCASM - the use of remarks which clearly mean the opposite of what they say, and which are made in order to hurt someone's feelings or to criticize something in an amusing way.

Ok fine.. Sarcasm isnt really the bestest thing to be used in a quarrel..
I have to agree on that... Hell! i used it a lot.. Especially when pissed at someone..
Somehow, anger and sarcasm clicks soo well with each other for my case..
I can hurt someone's feeling soo badly till that person get soo affected by it..
You are never in a proper state of mind when eu are angry are eu?
Same for me.. But i kept doing it to this particular person..
FOR NO REASON!!! its just that no matter what this person does it just gets on my nerves...

Another thing, everyone's use sarcasm... Even those friends around me!!
See, im not the only one!! haiz..
I used to get affected easily by sarcastic remarks..
But Fadly ever told me that there is a beauty in sarcasm..
For instance, instead of looking at the negative side, be optimistic abt it..
I am!! In fact, most sarcastic remarks can be seemingly hilarious..

Haiz.. people are just soo hard to please..
get hurt with the remarks - dae say eu are sensitive..
eu are cool abt the remarks - dae say eu are acting..
eu get even with them - dae say eu are cruel...
like what the heck luh!! worst is they say eu change a lot!!
sheesh!! KNS i tell eu!!! argh!! its soo annoying luh...

Minus all that!! i hv the most annoying sister ever luh!!!
fuck fuck fuck!!! argh!!!
she always thinks she is right!! damn it! well, she is not a perfect little girl oso what!!
Just cuz she is pitiful, doesnt mean she hv to tk advantage of everything luH!!!
argh! ive been thru with her!! she is sooo annoying!!!
evritime she comes back she always, ouh eu not doin a good job in helpin mom...
but hell! she doesnt even help but complain all the time luh!! F HER!!!
ya rite that is a good example of helpin mom.. by COMPLAINING!!!
I HATE HER!!! HELL!!
all she does is just makes mom cry for her... oh ya.. i forgot!!
she doesnt even noe cuz she think she is the perfect daughter!!
FCUK!!!!!!!

LOVES YA'LL!!!



15:14
i'll write on my own,
and i'll never disown,
the times that i have,
and the times that were then.

i'll hold on to yesterday,
as i will of tomorrow,
even if i lose you,
i won't be so sorrow.

cause' i had what i wanted,
and i got what i need,
it's your time to move,
and my time to complete.

but i will miss you,
that's one thing for sure,
it'll be on my mind,
but won't be my future.

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11:23
HEYO!!!

its been a wk straight since i blog...
well, dealed with skul stuff...
boring really... quit rugby..
thinking of whether i shud stay in my PACE...
i love both dearly.. but its just not really my scene to be committed in both..
its not that i dun like it.. its just that i find it weird.. SOMEHOW.

ok. nvm dat.. HARI RAYA approaching!!! like hell!!!
its somehow something i would look forward to!
i dunno.. maybe cuz im starting to interact with my cousins..
i tend not to like it a lot due to some family problems...
but hei! things do change.. so i gotta get use to that..

been baking like crazy!!! not only that..
imagine hvin to bake and cook to break fast like evriday!!!
soo tiring luh! but at least i still manage to find the time to contact my frens..
one of which is the BITCH.. den of course the others...

Fadly is leaving!! sad enuf.. :(
well, after his A's that is..
it was already planned that he will study overseas..
but that idiot practically left me for soo long...
den appear last yr.. now leaving next yr!!! ASS!!!

oh ya.. ytd!! was effin scary!!
imagine sleeping by the window on ur bed and waking up to the sound of the thunder!!
it was a LOOOUD one!! got scared out of my wits!!!
damn it! i didnt get to slp after that luh! and i didnt had a good night the day before!!
sheesh! darn crazy! this wk wasnt really my wk...
1 - lost my phone
2 - quit rugby
3 - family quarrels
4 - woke up to the sound of the thunder
5 - fadly leaving

ok.. maybe it wasnt that bad.. but its soo annoying!!
this whole wk seem to be like a disaster!! argh!

minus all that so-called 'disasters' of mine..
i had my small moments of happiness..
one of which was getting this necklace with Dian and Cindy...
i wore it everyday along with the other two that was given to me on my bdae..
kinda sweet really.. was meant to get a dogtag but instead we got this ring along with a necklace..
the ring was carved with love hope and faith...
the necklace forms a word of love..
like how they meant to me, thats how those words represent them..
cuden hv appreciate dem even more.. :)

LOVES YA'LL!!!



11:03

i lost you and ive missed you soo..
euve been on my mind, all the time..
nvr a moment did i left eu behind..
but today was the saddest, we drifted...

somewhere along the quiet roads..
lonesome fills those empty spaces...
dread that eu were taken from me..
my freedom is suddenly shut away..

4 mths wasnt too long but definitely short..
yet every moment is cherished with love..
cuz it wasnt too long ago dat i own eu..
now ive lost eu its soo saddening..

hope a kind soul will reunite us..
cuz eu were 24/7 no doubt..
without eu i m breatheless..
cuz eu were my one true love..

ill wait and i will pray and hope eull be fine..
cuz ill nvr forgive that person..
curse the person who got eu away..
for i will avenge my lost love..

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21:54
THE DAY I LOST MY PHONE!! (!@$$%^&!!!!)

day was like normal...
slpt @ 4 den skip breakfast cuz i ate popcorn while watchin some videos..
woke up at 730 den rush to go get ready for skul..
granny insisted on takin the cab but i said it would be easier tkin the bus..
plus can save money on that...
den i listen to some hardcore music to let my annoyance feelign out..

the last person who hold my phone was harlina...
and dat was it.. i rmb wrapping it with my landyard den i place it the deepest part of my bag..
after that i place my bag under the table and did my work..
my body obstructed ppl from taking things from my bag cuz i totally got it covered..

i didnt really took out my phone until somewhere the end of class..
so eu can imagine my phone being in my bag safely..
however, when the cher ask to tk out a book to refer to..
i decided to check my phone in case i had any imp msges..

dats when i started realizing it was gone...
the weir dpart of the situation is the landyard was still in my bag...
unlogical right? phone gone but the landyard was still dere...

rummaged my frens bag and mine soo many times!!
but still cant be found.. it is my life force!! my life depend on that phone!
whoever dat bitch or bastard who took it is dealing with the wrong person!!!
argh!!! frustrated!!! what the hell did i do wrong for eu to tk my phone away!!!

called but the call was rejected! and.. a den when i tried calling again at home it was off!!
i just top up my card!! hell! dere was 90+ value in dere! F dat person who took it...
dat smart ass off my phone and im sure he will hv no access to it!
i cnt believe it!! it is soo frustrating!!! i swear dat person will lead a horrible LIFE!!!

LOVES YA'LL!!!



11:26

threading on the little sidewalks that used to be ours
as i walked on the journey back to the past
never regretting what I've done , but wishing i didn't do it.

wondering if all had'nt happen, would we still talk?
not act like we never intrude in each other's lives.
as i waited for a sign to tell me you forgave me.

we never had wonderful memories ,
but our decision made us rather not have any memories than have a bad one .
i hope and wish that you would one day see me on the streets,
and we will be greeting each other like old friends
not avoiding and immediately turnaround

i miss you my friend
i am sorry ......
but i guess , if i do see you,
i would be the one running away,
too ashamed to face you
and face that i really lost you those months ago....

copyrighted by ♥♥♥ Lynn Lim ♥♥♥

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00:48
hei hei!!! BACK yo!
haha.. life feels soo good!!
slacking at home, watch vids, go out, teach, ccas, school, chalet etc.
even more btr is waiting for n levels to end so that POO can finally give me what he owe..
he better do so!! after what he promised! haha..

today was ok i guess...
went online till 4 den made breakfast before gg to slp..
eu cant believe what i had for breakfast!
a piece of choc brownie and a box of chrysanthemum tea!
trust me.. it taste EFFIN DISGUSTING!!!
nvr gonna go thru that path again!
ewww... dinner was alright...
dunno whether its me, or there are no other food that i could think abt to cook..
as in seriously, its like the same old food everyday..
guess i gotta start thinking of new ones to cook...
but i got no idea what would that food be...

whoa.. can eu believe it?
10 MORE DAYS to HARI RAYA!!!!
like wad the heck.. its fast!!
gdness.. i nvr even keep track of the time..
and there are soo many things to do...
for once, baking!!! plus cleaning again..
sheesh! tough thing to do...
but i guess it will all be worth it..
haha.. somehow.. i hope so.. haha..
and soon, i will be able to wear my new clothes!!
but of course that is if i lost weight..
which AGAIN, i didnt keep track..
hell! i shud start noting things down.. PRONTO!

LOVES YA'LL!!



23:42
AWAY from the notes at LAST!
took my ppr ytd.. weird gg to skul alone..
its like the feeling of first day in skul..
well, reach skul and hell! i was panicking!
reason~i dunno where was 26-4-10..
it wasnt mention where (or maybe i didnt read it properly)
i dunno.. it was 1400 and i had to be in the class by 1415..
i search high and low for that place in engine..
asking all the ppl i cud along the way..
i was glad to finally get one guy to tell me it was in business block..
WHICH WAS ANOTHER END OF TP!
i panick even more cuz it was left with 10 min before i got to the class..
talked to yihang to feel more secure..
finally found the class! tot i was late but glad i was early by a mere 3 min..
but i was sitting front row.. right in front of the invigilators table!! -_-"
ppr was ok but the theory that i studied did not cm out..
that totally flared me up.. but im glad i can do all the application qns...
on the bright side, i benefited from dat cuz i understand rebus btr now..

enough abt that.. at least i finished it.. only waiting for results which is on 2nd OCT!

previous days was was ok.. didnt really wen online..
more to watchin vid and studying.. (of cuz watch vid more!! like duh!)
been slpin at 4+/5 in the morn for 3 straight days..
hopefully nt today.. plan to slp early after this..

but credits to eu guys who were there to support me and encourage to study...
i love eu guys!! its really appreciated! esp stupididiot!! tok to her till 2plus in the morn ytd..

ive moved oN!! happiness fills my life now!! smiles evriwhere!
i finally leading a life witout eu.. glad that eu happy with yours yo!

guess that wraps up of what happen the past few days... boring stuff..

LOVES YA'LL!!



00:42
yesterday started out normally...
wasnt soo bad, nothing different came about..

after morning breakfast was mugging for REBUS!
again! ya ya i noe.. it makes me tick thinking about it!
procrastinating seems to be my favourite habit for REBUS..
hell! this is worst than science! i'm missing it more than expected..

after that was just cleaning the house...
so-called 'cinderella' for a day.. i dunno..
i was scrubing the walls of the house..
like what the.. haha.. yaya..
just cause i voice out that the wall needs some new paint!
me and my mouth! in the end my mom made me move my butt to work..
of cuz i didnt clean all! it would be amazing if i do.. sheesh..
clean the main ones but i promise to continue the remaining walls..

was suppose to meet dian after that but mom made me run errands..
end up not meeting her cuz i came home late..
and she cant break fast outside.. (thought cud give her a treat for being super duper late)
wen online from 5 till now.. i noe im suppose to study!
worst! my ppr is this cmin thurs! like HALLELUYAH to me!
super dead meat luh! ROASTED!

shinn and ashley called to check whether i was cmin for the chalet..
super sad luh! had to skip due to my ppr.. DIAO!
now end up screwed at home to stick my head into the notes to study..
HELL!! super horrible wk!!

and dar was being soo random today...
darn adorable luh! suddenly ask me if he should go for a haircut..
just cause he was caught with long hair.. damn cute rite?
ive not seen him for a mth i think.. and he was askin my opinion..
i was in total shock and speechless.. luckily it was a msg..
i think if we were to be on the phone i would be quiet the whole time..

FYI: those previous two posts was super random.. i dun even noe what was i thinking.. doesnt link anw..

LOVES YA'LL!!



01:55


the large blue sea fills my eyes
and the breeze caress my skin
with the view that touch my soul
along with the sand to relax my spirit

lost in a world of my own
with only myself to company
nobody to bring me down
just to gather a thought or two

the mind starts to wander
to all those good moments
that filled an appetite
for the joy in me to break out

relaxation is the word
for a peaceful state of mind
while tanning under the sun
as the skin turns darker

a rare moment like this
should be treasured with love
as it helps let out frustrations
and get away from the busy life

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01:05
left alone in the rain..
you went off without notice..
not even a word of goodbye..
or just a short text message..

i never mattered to you..
like how you ever promised..
though its different for me..
as you've been on my mind..

i remember those moments..
filled with laughter and tears..
those times meant a lot to me..
every detail of the things we do..

remember when we joke..
i still have it on my mind..
along with those crazy times..
it does come back to life..

but the one thing i wish to forget..
is the time when we had that fight..
that change the situation totally..
because now everything is different..

its weird without you now..
but i'm as happy as can be..
though at times i do miss you..
sadly, it is just only a memory..

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00:40
OK!! my HEALTH is back to normal!!!

woot!! like its the most GLORIOUS day of my WK!!
close to a wk of suffering from that so-called digestive system of mine!
phew.. cuden be any happier..

yeah!! continue to mug mug and mug!! duh!
i sick and tired of REBUS! gonna go bonkers soon with laws in my head along with calculations to rmb..
like why the heck do we study that for?! sheesh!

let me see.. looking back.. this wk was kinda dull!!
wow! like gdness i didnt even realize that!
weird! i dun hv much to say...

hmm, i get to noe wen is the date of my ppr tmr..
like.. wad the hell! haiz.. nvm.. the faster the btr..
but im not even prepared! dats the irony! diao luh!

oh oh.. ytd contacted that BITCH!! muahaha..
well, practically annoyed him till 2plus in the morn!
super fun luh! haha.. he was in paranoia thnx to me..
plus he didnt hv a good sleep! haha..
like how long hv i not done dat to him?
its been months! lol.
worst was he left an offline msg and called me "stupid girl"!
-_-" wad the heck! at least im a btr girl den him!
bleahx! xD

LOVES YA'LL!!



12:57
IM RETKIN SUPP PPR!!!

speechless and taken aback when i got my result..
well, at least its only one!! REBUS!!
aka the ppr i cried 3 days knowing i screwed up badly...
fine.. a mere F!! like how effin long hv i not gotten an F?
lesson learnt.. yeah! im learning that effin sub right now..

skipped poly forum to study... hell! i wanna prevail!
i dun care! im gonna do well in this sub!
especially having the need to be prudent in the calculations..
-_-" complicated... but one week!! guess thats what i need right now...

worst! i dunno y but my stomach hurts..
since mon.. ive been throwing up the food i ate lately..
is it bad air or smth? i got no idea...
been tryin to force food in so that at least i wud be full..
hv yet to go to the doc again.. cuz the med aint working...

evaluation wud be held again just for those who went for poly forum..
test again! cant seem to run away from it..
from studies to cca.. haiz..
at least still got time to spare for holiday..
this is seriously the worst time of my life!

LOVES YA'LL!!



10:34
soo yup... BZ BZ BZ..
POLYforum, trainings, evaluation test...
phew.. these few days hv been FREAKIN' hectic!!!
but hei.. tis wk started effin bad!!
glad that got sm ppl to support me mentally.. esp DAR and DIK!! LOVE eu both!
i got stomach upset the whole of mon..
which brought me to slight fever but it was ok though i dunno y i keep throwing up whatever i eat..
today didnt attend the poly forum cuz my mom asked me to go to the doc..
just mostly nd to watch wad i eat and eat my med..
at least to control my digestive system..

TRAINING!!!
woot!! started proper training ytd...
after poly forum rush back to skul den wen for training..
MAN!! the warm up, fitness and nutrition and power step effin tough!!
whole body achin by the end of training.. full 3hrs!!
small breaks in between.. but hell!!
after a mth of nt training all the muscles wen back to square one..
damn! well, tmr another session!
but hei! its after poly forum again..
and i swear to get btr food to eat to break fast rather than just a bread that suck!

POLY FORUM!!
dere are many teams.. i was in sub theme 4~SYOG
well, it was boring the first day that got most of us slpin in NYP..
mostly it was discussions all the way...
well, ytd didnt turn out that bad..
we got to meet C Kunalan from the SOA council..
cool! got to shake hands with him.. HONORED yo!
his family super international luh! damn cool!
he brought his wife along.. and talk abt his story..
hei.. nvr tot olympism wud sound more interesting that wad i expected!!

ACDC vs M&M!!
ass eu fadly! haha.. intro that to me and ass i got addicted..
both are good in their own way.. but hei ACDC rules!!
i dunno.. that idiot just got me gg crazy for stupid things!
but yo! eu the best buddy!! go out smtime soon after ur A level aite?
all the best for ur prelims yo!
FYI: eu owe me photos!

LOVES YA'LL!!



12:39
it was fun!! but it was TIRING!!!
y? i had PACE training from 9 all the way to 1600++
well, its not exactly training the whole way..
there were debrief for evaluation for PACE evaluation test next week..
and also the debrief for the PACE retreat..
will also be getting PACE SHIRT SOON!!!

met with mama.. took loads of photos!!
some with nice shots!! ill put up soon..
dat is once i get it from her..
rot @ bedok reservoir...
kinda cool!!

we were suppose to go cycling but eventually it was cancelled!!
due to certain ppl and certain nds..
but its ok.. we can still catch up the next wk probably..

wen to TM to look for my white polo t..
found one @ giordano.. like the material but nt enuf $$$.. -_-"
guess will be gettin it tmr wen i get my allowance..

met with JUN FENG and paddy awhile..
dae cut their hair tgt.. (as described by mama)
haha.. paddy look kinda cute... in a way..
break fast @ my fav place @ TM...

den wen to long john soo jun feng cud eat his dinner...
we oso bought tix to watch Wall E!!!
haha.. kinda weird cuz it was unlike any other movie..
touching and cute in a way!!
I LIKE THE MOP!! haha...

wen home @ 2300++...
mama took the train with me..
den fix my adidas watch that turned out wrong.. -_-"
tok a lil while more den she left..
all alone den reach home close to 11!!
glad it wasnt too late... haha..

SHORT & SIMPLE!!
dats how ill describe today..

too tired ready!!

LOVES YA'LL!!



00:49

LOVES YA'LL!!

00:09
ok.. so i woke up this morning...
and found out i was LATE!!!
i needed to meet my section @ 11 but i woke up @ 1130!!!
scared the wits out of me!!!
but lucky i took my time cuz all was still aslp... -_-"
wen i just reach BM Lib.. jere just called to say he just woke up!!
like.. WAD E HELL!!
met up wit qiuting and her cousin den wen to the lib to borrow bks..

after that we wen to mac to wait for jere..
funny.. when he come.. he dun even noe wad to say!!
haha.. pathetic rite? den end up i voice evrithin out...
well, like i said previously.. dae wont listen..
its just one ear in, one ear out..
soo its kinda hopeless tokin to them all..
did soo cuz of jere sake!! at least we told dem deir mistakes..
the rest is really up to them..

after qiuting left for her geog consultation..
jere and me wen back to the lib cuz he wanted to read.. haha..
like wad e.. dunno wad mystery book!!
haha.. den celeste came and we sorta rot dere..

we left not long after and decided to go other places..
we suggested from 1440 all the way till 1500 but we still stood outside lib..
haha.. JERE luH!! lol..
after all the places we suggested..
we wen back to square one.. all wanted to go home!! haa!!
just cuz jere gt training @ 5..

celeste wen to vivo.. n jere sent me off @ the skul busstop..
just for reminder to him: OWE ME MOVIE TREAT + $3.00!!
he said after N levels.. will be waitin.. haha...

after that is just like the previous..
play with my kids.. wen online..
help my mom in the kitchen.. had laughs...
den my bro in law along with my sis came to break fast with us..

now is just doing sm pace documents to hand in tmr..
tokin abt tmr.. i think i nd to stop here..
nd slp.. esp tmr mite b a looooooong day...

LOVES YA'LL!!



23:33
Walking down the lonely lane..
My mind starts to wonder to you..
Back to when you were with me..
Only mine and no one elses..

You were my world to live in..
The surrounding air i breathed..
The light to lead me through darkness..
The body to lean on when i'm weak..

Now you left me hanging alone..
Crying that you left with another..
And that i wasn't of any matter..
No more space for me in your heart..

Prevaricated by you..
Just proves my stupidity in trusting..
Still trying to be close though impossible..
And leaving was the only option given..

As said, memories are to reminisce..
But not meant for you to lean back on..
It hurts to know at times you don't care..
And also leaving isn't as easy as said..

I'm still moving on though at times i look back..
To see that all that happen was a drag..
At times i think it's a waste of time..
But then again, it's just part of life..

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21:17
WOOT!!!!
the retreat turned outbtr den i expected!!
no regrets being part of the committee!!
haha.. had fun! though we didnt play that many games..
but the FOOD was many the MANY!!!!
soo filling!! PIZZAS, SUSHI, FONDUE, BEE HOON, CURRY, SANDWICH ROLL...
GOODNESS!! it was NEVER ENDING!!!
i think i went home bloated!! haha.. it was great!!
@ least i got to noe more ppl from PACE!!
esp ANDY!! dat idiot!!
dat was the first time i noe of smone who speaks FLUENT MALAY!!
haha.. sial luh! LOL.

a lot of alumni came back... but i think out of all...
i find SAM kinda cool!! haha.. in a way..
Shinn said he is 6yrs older.. super funny guy!!
haha.. really.. soo many things to say about ytd!!
i just dunno where to start..
its really memorable..

and oh ya...
i gotta mention smth cool i found ytd!!
SHINN'S CAM!! super CLASSIC yo!!!
wad do i mean by classic?! well....
its unlike the cams that eu get to c..
it has the function of a classic cam!!
but with a touch of a cute lens!! SERIOUS YO!!

i took photo with it.. wen the photos are passed to me i will put it up ok?
its really cute!! she got it online for only 70 BUCKS!!

we wen home @ 11 from dere.. oh ya.. i forgotten to mention..
the place was freakishly ULU yo! but $105 for a nite.. guess its kinda ok!!
Van parents sent us off to Bedok and dropped Yuhan @ a busstop..
in the car, it was hilarious.. esp how the way we seated and stuff lidat!!
haha.. got to noe the our eye degree and stuff lidat..
i tot mine was high but leeshen's is higher..
was stunned!! it was 800+ and 900+..
but she still wearing contacts.. interesting!!
took the train with Shinn.. She alighted at Eunos and i wen all the way home solo..

Walked the longer way home cuz the shorter way is super deserted..
by the time i reach home it was 12++..
well, @ least we didnt miss the train.. haa!!

had a warm shower and i slpt.. and i manage to come out with this poem..
ill post it after this..

oh oh.. me and SHINN signed up for this POLY FORUM!!
err... received email from this wilson person..
wad i found out was its more on discussions, discussions AND discussions!!
whoa... i think thats a whole lot of talking required!!
n.. i nd to get white polo t too!!
super loads of things to do..
nervous abt it!! plus i nd to get up super early...
like 7++.. hope i can do so.. esp it ends @ 6 in the evening..
but really, who noes it might turn out good!!

FRUSTRATIONS!!!
wad the heck is wrong with my section!!
seriously!! dae are getting from bad to worst!!
i dun mind the piercings and their playing...
i mind that they not showing a good example to the juniors!!
effin PISSED!! Fanny haven been attending hol practices..
Celeste is hvin flu!! HELL!!
ever since wen wen eu hv flu eu cant play?
only one person cm today!! QIUTING!!
others are freaking hopeless! ArGH!!
Ive seen them play.. good but dae ought to practice more!!
like HELL!! they dun even noe the rhythm and they cant be bothered to find out demselves!!
sheesh!!! ive graduated!! none of my business...
but FREAK! dae gg BANGKOK yo!!!!
haiz.. i really got nuttin to do to dem animore..
like SERIOUSLY LUH!!!
jere called to inform.. i dun even wanna care animore..
dae shud handle this demselves..
but he persuaded to do smth abt it... argh!!
think abt it.. will they listen to what we gonna say anw?
haiz.. i doubt so but c wad happens tmr...

fyi: photos will be uploaded once i got dem...

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13:00
well, afternoon was alritey! i guess..
i didnt go for the meeting.. in fact, i sorta came out wit an excuse for not gg..
well, its not entirely lying, i was partly telling the truth!!

dad called home to talk to me!!
he only does that on rare occasions.. well, eventually, this time ard was just abt a virus..
he wanted my email add so he can sent to me.. soo sweet of him!! haha.. cute in a way!!
my dad!! haha.. cuden possibly ask for more!!

talked to lynn cuz she was over @ the CCABranch (where i had my NCO!)
she acc cheryl for her band major sectional i think..
well, to be exact she called to confirm of the bus to take to CCAB..
eventually, me (thnx a whole lot to Faz) and eddy, gave cheryl and lynn the wrong bus to go there..
they got lost and had to tk a cab there instead..
well, the bus supposedly was 153 but we told them it was 198.. like wad e... -_-"

had a good long talk with her.. been awhile since we do that..
or did we? hmm...
anw, it was a great talk! but i had to put down the phone cuz i nd to get the ingredients for tmr's retreat!

wen with mom, eventually, i kept laughing my head off!!
outings just with my mom are always in laughters!!
which is the reason y i like it!!
we have the same personality though we can get on each others nerve @ times..
haha.. well, like mama like daughter rite? haha..

evening!! the best bit of today!!
i helped mom with the cooking...
we plan to cook loads of stuff today, but end up with smth unexpectedly different really..
instead of cooking those that we agreed upon while buying, my mom cooked CHICKEN RICE!!!
dat was due to my sister n bro-in-law, whom decided to hv dinner @ my hse..
soo i wen ard to help in the kitchen...
fried loads of stuff but den the frustrating bit is.. i quarrel with the food while cooking!!
practically shouting my head off for doing the wrong things..
i sound soo INSANE!! got my whole family up with laughters..
but hei, dat got me even more irritated!!
the pass two days, ive nt been cooking rite...
it's jsut soo ANNOYING!!
doesnt even help when my family members are making fun of it..

haiz.. but @ least i had fun cookin in the kitchen!! haha..
especially with mom by my side..
its always FUN!!
can nvr tk dat away from me yo! lol.

Well, after dinner, wen to contact the com for retreat!!
sophia and i had a misunderstanding...
eventually, she cant help me i transporting the food to changi tmr..
but lucky lucky, van got me jiekai no..
and.. HE CAN HELP ME TMR!!
haha.. phew, dats solved!! @ least..
tot of overnighting but in the end soph doesnt want to..
so yeah, im not staying too... it will feel weird with those ppl...

anw, hope tmr will be fun.. like wad i hope so in the morn!!

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22:05
MORN YO!!

Was awake to eat my morn meal before fasting today..
Now, i just cant seem to get back to sleep..
Go online, check my email and the first thing i saw was 2 emails from Vanessa!!
To meet up today @ 12pm to go to her hse!! Dat totally crush my day today..
Was hoping to go out and do smth instead.. haiz..
Eventually i don't seem to be looking forward to whatever is gonna happen today..

firstly ~ i nd to buy the ingredients for the cooked food tmr.. (bee hoon and curry chicken)

secondly ~ hv to meet up with the rest of the committee and go to Vanessa's house.. God noes for what purpose!!

thirdly ~ nd to prepare for the stay over.. what to wear and stuff lidat..

fourth ~ hv to rush home to break fast and help mom with the food...

fifth ~ reminder to jot down the pace events that are gonna tk place..

HELL!! this pace thingy is just driving me nuts!!
come to think of it, i ever thought of quitting..
like SERIOUSLY!!
i meant, i didnt hv any reasons for joining did i?
i didnt even bother to listen when they were talking about their CCA during orientation..
the reason why i went for the interview was cuz of YingQi and Maha...
but in the end, i got in and they didnt!!!
ASS!!! now im stuck, in the committee...
i noe its not big of a deal..
im just paranoid about this upcoming retreat INDEFINITELY!!!
the others seem super excited about the event..
i just cant seem to think of the excitement at all!!
I've said it out... Haiz..
Heck! who noes tmr ill b havin FUN rite?
I guess i just wont let it bother me then...

I don't even know why.. but im either nervous or scared the hell out of my wits about touch..
they haven really contacted abt the training yet though..
but i hv a feeling that training is gonna be tougher this hol..
haiz.. i dun even noe how im feeling exactly!! esp these two CCAs..

N levels starts today!! Bitch, POO, Jasmine and Rooster tkin it..
Hope they do extremely well for their exams!!

Fasting was alritey!! not as bad as i thought.. made sardine rolls ytd by myself! :)
My fam said i was ok but to me its not as nice.. I missed out one freakin ingredient!!
ok.. im not really a perfectionists!! but its just annoying that it didnt turn out the way i wanted it to be...

I taught my daughter the names of food (vegetables, meat etc.) she seems to be liking being taught...
Did it out of boredom actually as she doesnt want to let go of me..

Diana had probs again.. She was practically crying while msgin me..
ok.. dat was cuz she told me.. wanted to call her but i definitely cant hear her through her sobbings.. so i let that thought slipped...
consoled her about it till she fell aslp.. -_-"
well, just hope she feeling btr! maybe ill check on her later..

ouh ya.. told rohaizat the truth!! haha.. seemed a lil shock abt it..
but i think we're cool abt it.. haha..
he is still as irritatingly annoying like usual!!

LOVES YA'LL!!



05:52
prevaricating to those you love..
is best to be avoided at all times..
the world starts to crush when truth reveals..
then those you love will start walking away..

walk away from trust and faith on you..
though not literally just walk away..
if you love them, do start working hard..
to earn or gain back what you have lost..

it's not easy to gain back the two..
even though time is not of the essence..
every action that's done does matter..
unless you decided to give up..

prevaricating prevails in us..
impossible to run away from it..
but we can try our best to avoid..
by starting to live life with honesty..

♥♥♥ aisasha♥♥♥

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